An angel on his two knees, arms stretched towards the red sea; of violence and a sultry tongue.

-Monday, October 31, 2005-

[We Could Leave This Town And Run Forever]

wooot . today was rather nice. went to zy house to study. i like his house sia. got this cozy ambience. then 2-4pm he had tuition. so me,hy and ck decided to cook something cause we were hungry xD. being good chefs, we thought that pasta would be nice and fulfilling so we explored zy's kitchen for ingredients. then halfway zy came down and saw us and he went "WTF". HAHAHAH. in the end we convinced him that we will cook something nice so he went back to tuition. then 20mins passed and pasta was ready. YUMMMMY. even zy said it was nice =D
then study study study, guitar guitar, talk, until it was err 7++ then went home.

listening to old songs now. nice =) and ck said that yiyuan(?) called him to say that we are in for the auditions thing. so YAY =D

[Love, J] ;10:46 PM;

-Sunday, October 30, 2005-

[It's Okay To Just Want More]

hello. today was ok. went for lessons in the morning then met up with ck and hy at khatib cafe to study. not bad, managed to study some physics. then went to ck's house, played around with his hairspray, radio and guitar. hahah i tuned in to an indian radio station and we listened to indian songs. then hy played 2rounds of dota and then later went home. met diana and joyce(my pri sch classmates) at bishan mrt station. diana is hot! and she has a nice character. like very warm and friendly. too bad we went to different schools =( well ok phs is alright cause there's err. hem.

anyway, after listening to i miss you at escape, i went home and started listening to blink again. and now i'm a big fan of them, again. and playing guitar is nice but there's a price to pay;the tip of my fingers are now swollen, painful and the skin looks like it's going to peel. PAIN , but FUN. =)

oh and my bro found out about ___ cause he was playing through my songs then he went to play the WAKE UP recordings. SO EMBARRASSING. he was like damn #$@@$ lor . "EH KOR, SORRY BUT I FOUND OUT ABOUT ___, AND SEND ME SOME SONGS CAN? I WANT REAL SONGS =))" the #$@@$ expression on his face. ah well. hm 8 days to o levels. lets hope it will be a breeze. bye!

[Love, J] ;7:20 PM;

-Saturday, October 29, 2005-

[An Empty Heart Replaced With Paranoia]

argh. i am very tired now but can't get to sleep. slept at 3am then woke up at 6:45am. grr my brain keeps playing back to yesterday's audition then i get super worked up and depressed cause i know i played super badly. ARGH!

fuck i can't let this kill me let go, i need some more time to fix this.

[Love, J] ;12:49 PM;

[Happy Halloween]

the first half of today was crap, and second half was great.

morning -> went to khatib macs to study, then went ck house until 1:30 , and headed to sch for auditions. i fucking screwed up our band by dropping the drumsticks and playing extra after it ended. so sway you know. at first it was the hihats, they became loose right after i start to play. then i was like ARGH then my drumsticks dropped lor. SO EMBARRASSING CAN. then halfway through the audition i was hitting air then realised that there was no ride cymbal. like WTF then i got all panicky and screwed up the whole thing. ARGH STILL WTF. i perfected the whole damn thing when i played last few days then just gotta screw it up during the auditions. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. so demoralised can? DAMN. LIKE SO UNSATISTFIED WITH MYSELF LOR. sigh. i really hope our band can get in. or else i will feel VERY GUILTY. oh and jw looked really cool playing drums(salvaged his band from the poor vocals and soft guitars) and a particular contestant sang really well.

then hy came to my house. lazed around until 6 then we met up with joey, eugene, jw. and off we travelled to pasir ris. then met up with zh, lydiang, jerine. went to downtown east. the escape theme park =) hahaha the staff dressed up in halloween costumes and makeups and went around scaring people. tried rides except the pirate ship ( i hate that ). it was pure fun ok. love the water ride, like you could feel no gravity for a few seconds. but then i got totally wet =/ then tried the indoor rollercoaster, not scary la but was quite painful cause the 90degree turns kept bashing us against the seats. hahah we saw an ABC, SUPER CHIO CAN. plus she wear the halloween costume, super hot. then joey go say AMERICAN BORN CHINESE so loud and scared her away =( then went to the haunted house. omg i was scared the shit outta by jerine. she suddenly scream and pinch me then i thought got someone behind. then make me keep screaming =/ the go karts was fun as well. loved all the cheap thrills i got from the rides =x then walked around til 11. sat somewhere and listened to songs. then blink182's i miss you was playing lor. like so nice. all the lights shimmering then playing i miss you. plus halloween and they were playing the song for night before christmas. NICE NICE NICE. one of the best times i had. =)) went to eat supper and then headed home. FUN. =) HAPPY HALLOWEEN! i guess this world is fair afterall, gave me a bad morning/afternoon and a very pleasent night. sorry for the grammer/spelling errors . super tired now. gonna go bathe then sleep.

CONCLUSION:
this morning's retardedness has knocked some sense into me. that i am not as good as i think i am. gotta practice more if i really wana achieve my dream. BYEBYE and thanks guys for the super fun night !

[Love, J] ;12:58 AM;

-Thursday, October 27, 2005-

[Kiss Me Down By The Broken Treehouse]

hiya. today was quite a nice day.
morning-> tuition. mr chua is so #$@#$ ok. anyway cleared many doubts about a maths.
afternoon-> ate lunch at j8 basement. the whole thing was so dumb =x esp me and patrick.
then went to cut hair. wah damn pathetic ok. i said only cut the sides short then she cut my top til so short. tmr still need to go sch for auditions one leh... grrr !
then went to jam, was quite nice. finally completed always =D
waited for the highlight of the week ; LOST. ok la today's episode was quite nice , at least compared to last week's episode which was a total waste of time. soo tmr is a nice day as well. oh and forgot to mention the heavy rain outside, it's so nice ok, like so nice to sleep =) sleep sleep sleep! bye!

[Love, J] ;11:00 PM;

-Wednesday, October 26, 2005-

[Happy Birthday Ck!]

went out to celebrate ck's birthday today. HAHAHA happy birthday ck you're finally 16 =D then went to watch flightplan. i liked the storyline alot. nice twits. stoned in town awhile before going home. then night = went to NTUC with dad. wahaha bought lots of green tea, ice cream and a packet of marshmallow. hahahaha feeling tired yet happy.

still, happy birthday ckcckkckkc !

[Love, J] ;8:33 PM;

-Monday, October 24, 2005-

[It's The Point You're Missing]

hello. today was an unfortunate day for hy. hahaha.

went to gym in the morning . then after that went to school library to study while joey had his evening academy. halfway through hy's phone rang and ms tang happened to hear it. so she brought hy down to find mrs leow then his handphone got confiscated. poor thing sia. we don't even have evening academy lor, like just go library to study then hy's handphone got confiscated. plus is people sms him, like study halfway the phone ring then got confiscated. so sway. HAHAA THEN HY DID SOMETHING THAT WAS SUPER RETARDED. it was so amusing that i kept giggling to myself for the rest of the EA. oh and zh our manager got us an audition form today. so yay i think we get to go try out at the auditions this friday. 3cheers for zh!

then after school went to j8 to buy dinner. halfway on the escalator a purse from the opposite escalator tapped my hand. then turned and saw ms chionh. hahaha abit surprised sia, first time see ms chionh outside school. then went home, outside was raining elephants and hippos. the rain was super heavy ok. but was lazy to wait so just ran home. hahaha i must say the rain was very cooling, been a long time since i got so wet.

poor hy. pouts =o

[Love, J] ;6:54 PM;

-Sunday, October 23, 2005-

[You're The Closest To Heaven I'll Ever Be]

couldn't sleep well yesterday and the day before yesterday. been thinking about lots of stuff. then when i finally slept i had a dream or something, dreamt that i was botak hahaha.

anyway here's a confession: so i had a crush on lydia. amazingly my first crush in these 4 years. hmm i guess the only reason i finally dare to write her name here is because i've accepted the fact that i will never be with her. like we are miles apart, our lives, character and circle of interest are very different. so on 11/7/05 i saw her at amk then was kinda attracted to her. ya it's dumb to say i like someone because i am attracted to her physical appearance so i only dare to say i find her cute and stuff. friends urged me to talk to her, i did on a few occasions but the conversations we had died in a mere 5-10minutes. many times i typed hi but just didn't hit the enter key cause i know i have nothing to say after that.haha anyway it's just dumb to have a relationship at such a young age, many of them won't last. see how many couples out there break up in a few weeks, making love look cheap. the only exception i've seen so far is hy and zh, i think their relationship is a lasting one. hahah i bet i'll be laughing at myself when i read this entry in a few years time.

ok away with those stuff, today was quite fun. had drum lessons, ric was quite friendly today, or at least i made him friendly. he said the previous student was giving him attitude like he's some spoilt brat, so i laughed and told him not to worry cause i ain't one. so, the 45mins+ we had was well spent, he gave me a music sheet for sight reading. hahah i made lots of mistake playing along but it was fun. then on the way home i was thinking about spoilt brats. you know those rich kids with a stuck up face, just feel like slapping them. they get everything they want and they think everybody owes them. well fk them i'm going to stop nagging . actually i have alot to say but it's time for lunch and whoever is reading this should be needing a break by now, so bye! =D

[Love, J] ;1:48 PM;

-Saturday, October 22, 2005-

[1 2 3 4 I Wana Be Smart, 5 6 7 8 I Wana Get Good Grades]

hah. waiting for them to online and i couldn't find anything to do so i blogged again. mmm a month to go and we are free. so many things i wana do.

i really hope ms kee let us perform(but she looks like those egoistic teachers, like wana act fierce, so i doubt she'll let us perform). argh. it really won't affect our O levels cause we already know how to play the songs. just need some touching up and we'll attend the rehersals if we get in. why can't they just look at it from our perspective ._. like last chance for us to do something for the school before we graduate.

oooohhhh and i bought redoxon, the vitamin C supplement cause i don't wana get sick before O levels like during the prelims. plus i don't eat vege so i lack vitamin C. and my legs are super tired right now. tmr sure get dissed by the dumb instructor. as you can tell from the title, this post is just retarded.

[Love, J] ;10:56 PM;

[You Can't Fight The Tears That Ain't Coming]

hahahaha been feeling perky these few days. don't know why but i just feel happy and reassured about stuff.

so today went to amk's kfc to study. then went to jam at weelee, hahah it was great! i think everybody had fun and yy had endure with our noise =)
then went to springbloom for bball. starting lost 2 rounds then later we won 9rounds consecutively, godlike streak! hahaha. still feeling guilty cause my fingernails accidentally cut zy.

oh and i must thank sihong for sending me Iris. it's one of the songs that i liked but i couldn't listen to cause i don't know the title. the feeling is just great, like finding something that you thought you lost. and i want to watch City Of Angels! but i doubt anyone will have the dvd cause it's a 7 year old movie.

[Love, J] ;10:19 PM;

-Thursday, October 20, 2005-

[Head Over Heels]

hi. today was O level science practicals. it was ok la. chemistry just left people arguing whether it was aluminium, zinc or LEAD. mr thomas say zinc then zinc meh ._. let me ask you a simple question to show you that it is confirm lead. here goes, do you use aluminium, zinc or lead for your pencils? lead right? see.

anyway, went to jalan kayu to eat prata after school. the mutton murtabuk(?) is super nice ok!

meanwhile gonna find something to do until LOST starts. bye.

[Love, J] ;8:57 PM;

-Tuesday, October 18, 2005-

[Withdrawal]

HELLo. today was terrible. woke up at 730 then after i finished ironing my clothes it was 745. like damn sleepy so i went back to sleep instead of going for EA. slept all the way til 12 then went to sch. saw the other junming, wah he look more handsome now =x plus he said "hi junming" to me in a cool way lol. if he didn't smoke i'd think he's the best looking guy amongst everyone i've came across. ah well, went in sch and it was practically empty. so i turned around and headed home. then the whole day was wasted watching tv/going online plus studying some physics. at least now i am not obessesed with anyone anymore. it feels so good to become normal again =D

night time was boring. time spent stoning/chatting on msn/watching tv.

hmm, sci practicals in 2days' time. a little worried. but yeah anyway tmr meeting ck at j8, maybe buy some clothes then go for tuition. sigh. life is boring, at least for now. this short attention span is killing me. i need to start studying harder.

[Love, J] ;11:55 PM;

-Saturday, October 15, 2005-

[Splash]

wooot today was a fun day! hy, joey, mel, jw, larry, ah he and i went to jurong to swim. fun hahaha the wave pool is damn nice loh, too bad the tallest slide is down for maintainence. went to jam at jurong after that, then headed home. met ben on the mrt, and many weird people that kept us entertained on the return trip from jurong east to bishan.today was just great.! now finally have the mood to study. i'll start tomorrow=D
very tired now, gonna go sleep. cyas!

[Love, J] ;10:45 PM;

[Out Of Place]

life's really weird right now. i wake up everyday at 9+ / 10+ thinking OHSHITI'MLATE only realising i don't have to go to school anymore. then for the rest of the day i just stone infront of the computer or go out to play bball. i can't concerntrate on studying. i miss school =/ ok not really but the people in school.

hahaha and garry teo has been brainwashed by christianity. he's going mad trying to persuade ck to go to church. they say you'll go to hell if you're not a christian. but i want to go to hell cause if everyone is going to heaven it's going to be overpopulated.

[Love, J] ;10:22 AM;

-Thursday, October 13, 2005-

[We'll Jump The Ship, We'll Sink Them Fast]

what can i say? this world sure likes to make fun of people.

yeah anyway there's LOST later !

[Love, J] ;8:47 PM;

-Wednesday, October 12, 2005-

[Graduation Service]

this entry can be summarised in just "i graduated from phs" but you can read the crap below if you have time.

yeah today was graduation service. so i finally graduated from PHS after 4 years. wah sihong and bella's speech was pro sia ._. haha and ms chionh is so nice she ordered a cake specially for our class =D then welson and zhikang's secret was let out by the ever-retarded tomyam. so after that we went around taking photos.then 2Devotioners were finally united. we even took a class photo =)

so after school was a total let down. yesterday was still thinking that after sch can go out have some fun but then in the morning something happened. then change of plans. so in the end everyone went out with their own friends. then went to ck's house. play some computer games then went home.

=/ thought we could do something meaningful and significant for graduation day but oh well.

so now joey just called me and told me he saw her at somerset, which brings my mood to an all time low for today. argh should've just followed them to cuppage. then at least i could have seen her for the one last time. ARGHHH sian.

sorry to have you read this but i'm so bored and fked which resulted in this dumb entry.

[Love, J] ;7:16 PM;

-Monday, October 10, 2005-

[Help!]

ahhh fk someone help me! i accidentally sprayed soap into my eye. IT HURTS LIKE $@#%^& ! ahhhhhhhhhh ouch. ok gonna blog with one eye so sorry of there are typos.

today was quite ok. school was errr quite fun compared to other days. stayed in sch for add maths EA. ok la was quite fun. stupid munling kinda spilled my secret out. mr tan's a really nice teacher. yeah EA was productive as well cause i finally know how to integrate stuff =)

ARGH some things are just so ambiguous.

[Love, J] ;6:19 PM;

-Sunday, October 09, 2005-

[As Fresh As The Bright Blue Sky]

yesterday was just =D =D =D =D =D and more =D

hum.. =D now my whole body is aching. esp my shoulder and arms.
ok so we're having graduation service on wednesday.

[Love, J] ;5:58 PM;

-Tuesday, October 04, 2005-

[As She Carries On Without A Doubt]

hello. life is really boring right now. school sucks like a vacuum cleaner. i think i'd be doing stuff 10times more fruitful at home. english seminar today, but of course we didn't attend the dumb seminar. so we went home.

then, tabbed PunkRockPrincess cause the tabs i found were way inaccurate. hehe took about 1hour to tab the whole thing. i wouldn't dare to say it's flawless but i think it's close. by like 90%.

oh and damn i didn't keep my promise of not going online for 3 days. hahah this shows how i'm addicted to the computer. oh well...

k bye.

[Love, J] ;4:33 PM;

-Sunday, October 02, 2005-

[The City Is Just Beyond Those Clouds]

sigh. there are so many things i want to do like cleaning/polishing my drums, going town to shop, catching a few movies and going to the beach yet i know i should spend my time studying faithfully. "O"s are in a month's time and i have only covered chemistry. physics and addmaths to go and some brushing up for maths and i'll be well prepared enough to enter the exam hall. i hope time passes faster but it's like hoping to see your friends go.

oh yeahhh i'd worship my instructor if not for the fact that he smokes .

shan't on my com for the next 3 days. that means i'll only be online only after wednesday which means i'll need more batteries for my mp3. k byebye.

[Love, J] ;3:48 PM;

-Saturday, October 01, 2005-

[Long Awaited Break]

yay saturday ! a day to relax and have fun, besides the dumb addmaths tuition. WEEE going jamming! like haven't done that in 3weeks++ like wooooo yayy. bball too ! yayyyy yippie

My ribs have parted ways
They said, "We're not going to protect this heart you have."
My lungs are breathing open air
And my spleen is dripping from my pants
You've left me here in the cold
And I miss you

[Love, J] ;9:49 AM;